I don't know if everything is going amazing as far as me understanding how to do and make great lesson plans is going or me hearing back from the pretty girls I meet has been going, but with my stand up comedy since January 2012 I have found a new love! I like to amuse, entertain, and make others laugh and smile and feel good inside. I have known that I am healer and a storyteller since I was only a 4 or 5 year old very self aware, sentimental, and intuned with myself little kid!
My stand up comedy I perform at least once a week and up to 3 times a week currently at Tickles in Garden Grove and the Harp bar in Costa Mesa. Because summer is over and I am student teaching high school kids art class, I have to be responsible to my credential needs and do less open mics in order to get to work on time and to have my material needed for teaching completed on time. I am much better at stand up comedy than I am at creating lesson plans.
Not much I can do or say about it if some of my favorite models refuse my advances to impress her and sweep her off her feet but go on this or my other websites and watch my videos I upload. I know it is not just my imagination of whom or which bikini supermodels are looking at my online content I have up....but the why part is beyond me! If they do not respond back to me at all, or if they do respond they are not flirtatious but business like with just another fan of theirs...So I am very thrilled that famous models look at my websites....but extremely confused as to why they are on my websites so often if they think I am not worth their time or approval or friendship. I can not prove any of it....but the model I am in love with from afar whom I met before but do not know personally in real actual life very much at all, why if she very much so went out of her way to refuse my interest in her online is she seem to be watching me or looking at my blogs and videos is beyond me...I guess it is a compliment to me? Or maybe the fact that I admit that I know I am completely smitten and in love with her maybe makes her feel worthy or special or powerful. She rejects me and I go online and talk about her and what amazes me about her in my blogs. Not very mature thing to do. But well i know that she is bad news for the mean spirited and disrespectful way she treated me, and yet I am so infatuated with her still, even if I try to pay no attention to her and don't look at her modeling pictures, I still think about her and how cool she is all the time. I am 98% percent sure she has seen most of my many videos online and most if not all of my blogs and my art website. I don't know if desiring a woman who is rude to me is a real mature and smart way to be, but I seem to like her very much even if I do not get to see her or have her approval back ever. I am aware of how dummy this whole thing is and yet I am convinced that I will never end up with her, but end up with the next version of Melyssa Ford or Kathy Ireland to come out of the woodwork as the next IT girl sex fantasy pin up model.
Any ways back around to my comedy again. It's going great and soon I think people will be fans and want to come out to see me perform because I can make them laugh! If I end having fans I have status and with status comes possible commercial or corporate sponsorship and the same bikini models who don't take me seriously right now would want my company and approval if I became more well known and more famous than them. I care more about being able to own my own high end mini van one day and all the different types of designer pets I want to own and adopt than sex with a bikini girl. If she hates pets then she can be my friend but not my wife. Pets are a must for me, it's either she on board or she's not and won't be my love interest.
Even if I never get well known as a comedian I just want to be funny and make people laugh and enjoy life! Laughter feels good and cheers many people up from being sad or in a bad or worried mood and mindset. Laughter is a way to heal and adjust to life and hardships, this is a positive role model way for me to be a good example of a healer as best I can right now!
My stand up comedy I perform at least once a week and up to 3 times a week currently at Tickles in Garden Grove and the Harp bar in Costa Mesa. Because summer is over and I am student teaching high school kids art class, I have to be responsible to my credential needs and do less open mics in order to get to work on time and to have my material needed for teaching completed on time. I am much better at stand up comedy than I am at creating lesson plans.
Not much I can do or say about it if some of my favorite models refuse my advances to impress her and sweep her off her feet but go on this or my other websites and watch my videos I upload. I know it is not just my imagination of whom or which bikini supermodels are looking at my online content I have up....but the why part is beyond me! If they do not respond back to me at all, or if they do respond they are not flirtatious but business like with just another fan of theirs...So I am very thrilled that famous models look at my websites....but extremely confused as to why they are on my websites so often if they think I am not worth their time or approval or friendship. I can not prove any of it....but the model I am in love with from afar whom I met before but do not know personally in real actual life very much at all, why if she very much so went out of her way to refuse my interest in her online is she seem to be watching me or looking at my blogs and videos is beyond me...I guess it is a compliment to me? Or maybe the fact that I admit that I know I am completely smitten and in love with her maybe makes her feel worthy or special or powerful. She rejects me and I go online and talk about her and what amazes me about her in my blogs. Not very mature thing to do. But well i know that she is bad news for the mean spirited and disrespectful way she treated me, and yet I am so infatuated with her still, even if I try to pay no attention to her and don't look at her modeling pictures, I still think about her and how cool she is all the time. I am 98% percent sure she has seen most of my many videos online and most if not all of my blogs and my art website. I don't know if desiring a woman who is rude to me is a real mature and smart way to be, but I seem to like her very much even if I do not get to see her or have her approval back ever. I am aware of how dummy this whole thing is and yet I am convinced that I will never end up with her, but end up with the next version of Melyssa Ford or Kathy Ireland to come out of the woodwork as the next IT girl sex fantasy pin up model.
Any ways back around to my comedy again. It's going great and soon I think people will be fans and want to come out to see me perform because I can make them laugh! If I end having fans I have status and with status comes possible commercial or corporate sponsorship and the same bikini models who don't take me seriously right now would want my company and approval if I became more well known and more famous than them. I care more about being able to own my own high end mini van one day and all the different types of designer pets I want to own and adopt than sex with a bikini girl. If she hates pets then she can be my friend but not my wife. Pets are a must for me, it's either she on board or she's not and won't be my love interest.
Even if I never get well known as a comedian I just want to be funny and make people laugh and enjoy life! Laughter feels good and cheers many people up from being sad or in a bad or worried mood and mindset. Laughter is a way to heal and adjust to life and hardships, this is a positive role model way for me to be a good example of a healer as best I can right now!