The Title of the new piece is going to be: "I love you whether you like it or not...My dream is to be accepted by you or your family...Foolish and yet very decisive for what I need or what my future kids would need...if not you then someone else with a strong functional healthy family foundation support system of your parents as a strong candidate for great grandparents
If I make art that I personally actually give a shit about and have a deep connection to then I will be true to myself, my desires, what I want out of life and hope to find and want to achieve...In August I am going to make art to please others and give away art gifts of castles or skulls I promised many people in the fall and winter of last year. But in June and July I have to let myself be expressed in my clay figurative typography sculptures...I want to have very cool and very personal work ready for Comic Con Art Show and ready to be shown or for sale by early July!!!
If I fall in love with models and I get rejected I will make art about that.
If thats what I want to talk about and what is important to me. That will be the authors message except I will be up front and not hide anything....I will leave out the hot girls name(s) but the experience of getting my heart broken and stepped on will be spelled out really clear. I will be respectful to the privacy of the girl I will be talking about and not use her name in my art.
I had a goal and a dream...I set my mind to it, but in real life If I have a goal and a dream and I set my mind to it, not everything I want to happen will, not everything can be accomplished, especially love, romance, and relationships...I miss my grandma Sylvia when she was still with it...very much...I miss Jim Henson...no one has replaced him...and it really sucks...hard...Jim Henson was a genius a Da Vinci of puppetry and imagination of entertainment and the arts of his day...no one came out of the wood work or grabbed the throne to replace him...We have very talented artists making cool projects right now...I wish I was the man who could have replaced Jim Henson and sold imaginative vivid dreams to kids...When I was 20 I wanted to have a son as an alter ego character who would be an all American hero who gets the chicks and makes films just as good as Jim Henson. I think I as a father could create with my DNA or if I adopt, raise kids that achieve possible greatness in whatever they do. I think I will not have kids who do drugs or die from a drug overdose....I think I can have strong kids who will not succumb to peer pressures to fit in or get into trouble with bulimia, anorexia, or crime. I think I have what it takes to be a cool and strong father....I just need a strong woman who I am mused by and infatuated with...and the money to adopt and raise kids as a family...I will make it happen. I'm not a quitter, you can't beat me or take the fight out of me, ever really to be honest...I might let things go without a fight or battle on everything. But no one is going to stop me from trying to meet a girl to marry and fall in love with one day! Not even myself and my social awkwardness will ruin my chances to improve my life and follow my dreams and my one directive to have a family before I die. I need at least once in my life to be in love and be loved back. As to what a therapist or a role model tells me is real actual love that is consensual with two people both participating...Somehow I will meet the right person and make it happen...not by being "myself" ; but having things like a car, house, good job on the bargaining table to offer her. If I am not good enough I need to give her what she wants. I'm to old to bullshit myself I'm turning 33 in a month and a half!!!
Go team Brent I am in this to get to the playoffs and make it to the finals as the champion! Even if the team of the hot woman has a stronger chance of winning and beating me. I have the drive to make it past the playoffs into the finals...If I get beat and lose to a rejection by the hot chick who has the team to beat as the reining champs, she should know that I don't know that I'm not supposed to not win this one. I hate giving up and not doing my 100,000% percent best if I really want something. Even if I lose the series I know I played like a winner and was in it to win. a winner goes for it and doesn't care about a little or even a lot of rejection, I fight like every fight is important...Maybe everyone thinks you are going to win as the beautiful hot woman and no one can touch you and the idea of beating you the champion team seems impossible to regular people....but don't forget that I am a dreamer, you can't touch my imagination or my resourcefulness at researching and planning what to do to attempt a successful not so secret operation of winning your heart and love and approval...I fail all the time, but I don't quit, unless I know when I have no chance and it is the time to quit and move on and give up. I give up on lots of things, but not without trying it out and attempting it first. Love and approval and validation and a bond of companionship is my number #1 goal no roadblocks will stand in my way from trying to meet and find someone willing to share herself with me and love me back!!! If one girl says no way, I will search for my next crush on my road and journey in life. Nothing can destroy me or stop me from fighting to reach my goals and dreams to be in love in a healthy relationship and owning my animals, pets and wanting a good job home and kids. I am determined to win no matter what bullshit or obstacles can stand directly right in my way...I might be a late bloomer, but you know how I don't quit if I really want something...If you pass on getting to know me I'm lining myself up for my next crush and will go through as many crushes on all the entire set number of women it takes to for me to find one who will respond to me and respect and love me back. Time is not an issue for me...things will take me a little longer than most....but I plan on reaching my goals in this not so secret operation to find a partner