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I don't know if everything is going amazing as far as me understanding how to do and make great lesson plans is going or me hearing back from the pretty girls I meet has been going, but with my stand up comedy since January 2012 I have found a new love! I like to amuse, entertain, and make others laugh and smile and feel good inside. I have known that I am healer and a storyteller since I was only a 4 or 5 year old very self aware, sentimental, and intuned with myself little kid!
My stand up comedy I perform at least once a week and up to 3 times a week currently at Tickles in Garden Grove and the Harp bar in Costa Mesa. Because summer is over and I am student teaching high school kids art class, I have to be responsible to my credential needs and do less open mics in order to get to work on time and to have my material needed for teaching completed on time. I am much better at stand up comedy than I am at creating lesson plans. Not much I can do or say about it if some of my favorite models refuse my advances to impress her and sweep her off her feet but go on this or my other websites and watch my videos I upload. I know it is not just my imagination of whom or which bikini supermodels are looking at my online content I have up....but the why part is beyond me! If they do not respond back to me at all, or if they do respond they are not flirtatious but business like with just another fan of theirs...So I am very thrilled that famous models look at my websites....but extremely confused as to why they are on my websites so often if they think I am not worth their time or approval or friendship. I can not prove any of it....but the model I am in love with from afar whom I met before but do not know personally in real actual life very much at all, why if she very much so went out of her way to refuse my interest in her online is she seem to be watching me or looking at my blogs and videos is beyond me...I guess it is a compliment to me? Or maybe the fact that I admit that I know I am completely smitten and in love with her maybe makes her feel worthy or special or powerful. She rejects me and I go online and talk about her and what amazes me about her in my blogs. Not very mature thing to do. But well i know that she is bad news for the mean spirited and disrespectful way she treated me, and yet I am so infatuated with her still, even if I try to pay no attention to her and don't look at her modeling pictures, I still think about her and how cool she is all the time. I am 98% percent sure she has seen most of my many videos online and most if not all of my blogs and my art website. I don't know if desiring a woman who is rude to me is a real mature and smart way to be, but I seem to like her very much even if I do not get to see her or have her approval back ever. I am aware of how dummy this whole thing is and yet I am convinced that I will never end up with her, but end up with the next version of Melyssa Ford or Kathy Ireland to come out of the woodwork as the next IT girl sex fantasy pin up model. Any ways back around to my comedy again. It's going great and soon I think people will be fans and want to come out to see me perform because I can make them laugh! If I end having fans I have status and with status comes possible commercial or corporate sponsorship and the same bikini models who don't take me seriously right now would want my company and approval if I became more well known and more famous than them. I care more about being able to own my own high end mini van one day and all the different types of designer pets I want to own and adopt than sex with a bikini girl. If she hates pets then she can be my friend but not my wife. Pets are a must for me, it's either she on board or she's not and won't be my love interest. Even if I never get well known as a comedian I just want to be funny and make people laugh and enjoy life! Laughter feels good and cheers many people up from being sad or in a bad or worried mood and mindset. Laughter is a way to heal and adjust to life and hardships, this is a positive role model way for me to be a good example of a healer as best I can right now! either some random chick is acting like a big chicken and trolling my website here way to often to be acting like a mature adult healthy person or someone overseas is phishing my site looking for content or something of monetary value to steal. 186 different visitor views in one day and it was not tracked this time by google analytics to tell me who it was or where they are from!
If you have something to tell me of your good/positive news to share with me or you want to yell at me for trying to have asked you out before on a date or something...Listen I really don't know who you are, grow up and stop acting like such an infant little girl! If you don't like me why did 186 people many of which maybe you "know" end up on my website today July 2nd? How can you stand up so straight if you have no spine? I entered a comedy contest against 9 other comedians at Flappers comedy club in Burbank Cailfornia. I did not win 1st, 2nd, or 3rd place...Part of that was my fault of struggling to tell my stories as my eccentric hopeless romantic characterization of myself in less than 6 minutes. The other part that sealed the deal so I would not win is a woman kept interupting me and shouting out that I'm not funny and that I'm not telling and jokes and kept asking me where is the jokes? Everytime I tried to start up new material or continue on. I thought she was very rude and full of herself to try to make me look bad on stage and engage her in a duel. I had to handle her by calling her a gentlewoman and a woman of refined class, but she wanted to still fight with me, while I wanted to continue where I left off. No one else got heckled by her and no one else had any hecklers trying to fight with them while they were on stage. I need to learn how to handle hecklers and rude pushy people like this while I am on stage. Out of the 23 people in the audience of mostly white people, 10 thought I was funny. Maybe, but not most likely I could have placed 3rd if that narcissistic retard did not ruin my last 2 minutes to be up on the stage and throw me off my train of thought. The 3 comics who won were either the funniest or the most seasoned comics used to being onstage of the group.
I have done much better before, I am told that my comedy does better with a more intelligent and educated crowd of people who embrace eccentrics the same crowd of hipsters or young adults in their late teens to late 30's is who my main audience will be. The Jeff Foxworthy crowd of that type of comedy is not going to get or understand me and what makes me funny at all, they will just be bored or really confused that my material is not your typical stand up material you have all seen thousands of times before. My friend said that I could either adapt and change my comedy to fit in with everyone else's or sound and look like everyone else's sets and format, or I could stick to my guns and continue to find a way to get my name and reputation going and do the comedy the way I want to. I like the latter better of staying true to myself and being unique and if you get me great, if you don't then don't come to see me a second time, playing for a less diverse(as in less stupid and ignorant people in the crowd) more open minded, hipper, cooler, and educated intelligent crowd is where I want to be at anyways! I was told by my friend that I need to be less wordy and tighten up my material and do shorter stories and sets. Doing a 6 minute set of a long story and not having difficulty at the 4 minute mark with only 1 or 2 minutes to go was not easy for me. I was socially fearless as always on stage, but trying to organize my mind around how to think with less words differently than the way my mind works or how I speak is difficult. I'll work on it but I am not sure if I will be able to have a 2 minute story or a 6 minute set of stories in the next month, this new technique of how to reach the audience fast may take up to a few years to master for me. Some people love my comedy and think I am very very funny. Some just sit there and don't get any of it or very little of what I am doing as a character type based on myself on stage...Finding my way as a comic is what I am trying to do these days. I'm long past the stage of not knowing what it's like to be up stage, or apprehension about doing stand up comedy. Now it is all about how to refine and master stand up comedy so that the audiences can find it easy to laugh at and with me right away without difficulty. My summer has been going by really fast. Much of it is uneventful, but certain things are going great this summer compared to last summer!
For instance this summer I am in my studio apt by myself independently living in Long Beach and not at my parents home in San Diego with lots of fighting and family drama of who is top dog on the pecking order. I have left alone for 70 days the girl of my dreams who rejected me online and am not to worried that I am going to fall of the wagon and try to impress her right now! Having impulsive behavioral self control is very uplifting and very empowering for my self worth and self esteem! I have my cat with me for unconditional love and companionship! I perform my stand up comedy 2 to 4 times each week and I go to my friends stand up comedy shows he gets booked at in the coastal Orange County bars at least once a week. I am doing my horseback riding lessons and volunteering every saturday morning and a few wednesday mornings. Due to the craziness of my July schedule I might just volunteer rather than sign up for riding lessons for the rest of the summer, I love horseback riding but I will be very busy for the rest of the summer! I need to take two 60 page essay writing tests for the credential program and I need to create a bunch of lesson plans, I estimate 10 art lessons? and artwork examples before mid August when I start student teaching. I was not allowed by my father to adopt a female cat I had my eyes on....That really sucked! I am in a weird night owl zone of working the nightshift from 6 or 7 pm to 5 am and not getting to bed till 7 or 8 am each day where my daytime hours are spent asleep. I make my art the best late at night all alone in my own headspace. I know it's odd, but I have been like this since I was 11 or 12 years old where I love to stay up late at night and not involve myself in the mornings. I only made 1 large castle and only 3 small castles along with a typography piece for comic con...They are all still works in progress. I have 2 more large castles to sculpt, fire, and glaze paint in the next 10 days! |
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