I will not be the least bit surprised if I never become a household world famous name or if it takes me 20 years to be an overnight success!
You see I have some anxieties and emotions that get in the way of me being as highly effective as I could be when it comes to world travel or going off to places outside my own comfort zone...but just like the black kid who has nothing to their name to start with in the ghetto who works his or her ass off at sports and rap music to get out of the ghetto and become rich and leave that world behind ...as a middle class white guy from the suburbs I was never good at sports and can't rap to save my life so I have the drive and inner need to try to make it and push myself into the public eye with my art or knowledge or by being a funny comedian! I want to escape from the cookie cutter suburbs of southern California and be able to have my own house zoned for animals in or within driving distance to the LA area! I have the drive to try to promote myself and network as best as I can without bullshitting anyone to not be tied anymore to my parents and not end up in bed depressed most of the day living with my parents in the Encinitas suburbs in San Diego! I dream of being married to a really awesome nice women who is a ultra sexy bikini model and owing horses and living in a large home zoned for horses in, or close to LA. People who do not have to worry about the possibility of being disowned by my parents and ending up homeless, or just being a dish washer or bus boy at a restaurant and not being able to afford to have enough income to find a wife who is sexy or likes me at all is what drives me to succeed. Being a nice guy who cares about others is not going to impress a woman who is selective about who she wants to date or the men she avoids! It's all about how much do you have and what can you do for me and providing the nest or or the luxuries she wants. I am not going to spend my life in my old bedroom at my parents house getting emotionally torn apart by them and the other relatives I have the privilege to deal with all the damn time! I'm going to fight to survive and for me it's don't end up back at the suburbs in a minimium wage job and no friends near by and no girls who like me back and my parents always hurting my pride or self esteem every chance they get to remind me of how low I am to them!
I might not have the social skills to impress every comedy show promoter to like me enough to give me a shot or time slot to go on stage. But that doesn't mean that I don't try!
Some bikini models might reject me when I meet them or introduce myself to them online...but as a fighter I'm in the game to win and it's better to be shot down than to her her never know that I liked and no idea at all who I am or that I even exist. I'm not aiming for negative attention or rejection, but it's bound to happen if you put yourself out their with other people in any setting, others will always make judgements good, bad, or just not think anything of you either way at all like I was invisible to them.
After my college loans are all gone and my teaching credential is all over, I might have to end up back home with my parents in San Diego for a while!!! I am not looking forward to that occurring to me right around the corner. It's hard to impress bikini models in person and online on their profiles they have set up at social networking sites and not being famous right now at this point in time, the women will reject me by ignoring me or by straight out blocking and deleting me online if I try to get to know more about them. So unless I become a celebrity or really well know I'm not going to get a wife or girlfriend any time soon! That is another thing that makes me getting somewhere that I want to be important to how good of a joke teller, storyteller, artist, or art teacher I am. Do I want to remain single for the rest of my life? Or do I want to become famous where I lose my privacy by being in the public eye a recognizable figure but have women who return my phone calls and email me themselves looking for approval from me and not the other way around of me looking for love or approval from them the unattainable woman of my dreams!
I have spent various times in my adult life at home in the San Diego suburbs and I hated my life during those years. Comedy and art and being an art teacher are how I plan to escape from my parents disappointment in me all the time and turn those rejections from beautiful girls into them trying their hardest to seduce and impress me in or around the LA area with a few horses to own or to ride!
You see I have some anxieties and emotions that get in the way of me being as highly effective as I could be when it comes to world travel or going off to places outside my own comfort zone...but just like the black kid who has nothing to their name to start with in the ghetto who works his or her ass off at sports and rap music to get out of the ghetto and become rich and leave that world behind ...as a middle class white guy from the suburbs I was never good at sports and can't rap to save my life so I have the drive and inner need to try to make it and push myself into the public eye with my art or knowledge or by being a funny comedian! I want to escape from the cookie cutter suburbs of southern California and be able to have my own house zoned for animals in or within driving distance to the LA area! I have the drive to try to promote myself and network as best as I can without bullshitting anyone to not be tied anymore to my parents and not end up in bed depressed most of the day living with my parents in the Encinitas suburbs in San Diego! I dream of being married to a really awesome nice women who is a ultra sexy bikini model and owing horses and living in a large home zoned for horses in, or close to LA. People who do not have to worry about the possibility of being disowned by my parents and ending up homeless, or just being a dish washer or bus boy at a restaurant and not being able to afford to have enough income to find a wife who is sexy or likes me at all is what drives me to succeed. Being a nice guy who cares about others is not going to impress a woman who is selective about who she wants to date or the men she avoids! It's all about how much do you have and what can you do for me and providing the nest or or the luxuries she wants. I am not going to spend my life in my old bedroom at my parents house getting emotionally torn apart by them and the other relatives I have the privilege to deal with all the damn time! I'm going to fight to survive and for me it's don't end up back at the suburbs in a minimium wage job and no friends near by and no girls who like me back and my parents always hurting my pride or self esteem every chance they get to remind me of how low I am to them!
I might not have the social skills to impress every comedy show promoter to like me enough to give me a shot or time slot to go on stage. But that doesn't mean that I don't try!
Some bikini models might reject me when I meet them or introduce myself to them online...but as a fighter I'm in the game to win and it's better to be shot down than to her her never know that I liked and no idea at all who I am or that I even exist. I'm not aiming for negative attention or rejection, but it's bound to happen if you put yourself out their with other people in any setting, others will always make judgements good, bad, or just not think anything of you either way at all like I was invisible to them.
After my college loans are all gone and my teaching credential is all over, I might have to end up back home with my parents in San Diego for a while!!! I am not looking forward to that occurring to me right around the corner. It's hard to impress bikini models in person and online on their profiles they have set up at social networking sites and not being famous right now at this point in time, the women will reject me by ignoring me or by straight out blocking and deleting me online if I try to get to know more about them. So unless I become a celebrity or really well know I'm not going to get a wife or girlfriend any time soon! That is another thing that makes me getting somewhere that I want to be important to how good of a joke teller, storyteller, artist, or art teacher I am. Do I want to remain single for the rest of my life? Or do I want to become famous where I lose my privacy by being in the public eye a recognizable figure but have women who return my phone calls and email me themselves looking for approval from me and not the other way around of me looking for love or approval from them the unattainable woman of my dreams!
I have spent various times in my adult life at home in the San Diego suburbs and I hated my life during those years. Comedy and art and being an art teacher are how I plan to escape from my parents disappointment in me all the time and turn those rejections from beautiful girls into them trying their hardest to seduce and impress me in or around the LA area with a few horses to own or to ride!